wow it's been a while

I have now been employed for two years but only 1½ years since my ordination.

I was so overwhelmed by the size and the responsibility of my job. It is still very large and difficult to manage but I believe that I am starting to grow into the position. My largest struggle has been living a life with Christ in the center. I have so many questions that has still gone unanswered, but I guess that this is part of the journey.

I believe so many things that go against Swedish society. My struggle is that I hate conflict so much that I often do say anything when maybe I should. I don't mean that I need to propagate my opinions just because I need to be right, but sometimes what is being said is not only wrong but it is influencing people and giving them false hope. I wonder how will I fare on judgment day?

today we have a group coming from France and I just now thought about them needing sleeping bags. I hope that they have thought of that on their own. i keep on making mistakes. i just wish that one day would go without a hitch, but then that would probably not be my life.

last week I was moaning about not being able to preach so often, when one of my young leaders helped me so see that preaching is not only done from the pulpit but is more often done when we meet others and do life with them. this was such a deep and important insight for me.

There are a lot of things to like about my job. i get to work both inside and outside of the church. I'm not limited to only one group of people. we have people who are far away from God, others who are struggling to find him, and a group who have decided to embrace the truth of God's word. This makes being a priest very exciting and keeps me guessing.

I hope that this day will be lived for Jesus. I must make sure that I have time to pray and read my Bible. We have guests coming to the church and there is a whole lot of planning that still needs to get done.

well I have to get to work.