svårt att be - difficult to pray

this week I had really wanted to pray, but I never seem to get around to it.
I find that this is one of the real challenges of being a priest.

When I was in seminary I always looked down on the visiting priests who talked about how little time they had for preparation and individual devotion. I was so certain that I was not going to end up like them.

the truth is that I am like them. I am so inundated with paper work that I often don't make time for prayer. things keep popping up. there is alway something else that needs to be signed or a conversation that needs to take place. It is so difficult that many times I just give up.

I have every intention of this term being different but so far it has still been too many days where I have planned on praying but then I never make it. Sometimes I think that it might be better if we there were a few others who would like to pray with me. Even this is difficult. many of my Christian friends don't have time either.

this past Sunday we were a few who prayed and it was so "härligt" that is wonderful. I really enjoyed just spending time before God. I have truly missed it.

i wonder when did everything else become so important.

this has to change