29 aug 2008

I have been really worried lately.
I feel like things are on the edge. I really want to serve God but I'm finding that this is not always easy. there are many times in a person's life where they have to make a choice between preserving what they now have in their hands and risking it all by doing the right thing.

I do not believe that God has led me all this way just so that I can become blinded by comfort and security. what I do believe is that He has led me to this point in my life so that I may choose Him above everything.

Yesterday I was so worried about a document that requires my signature on it. The thing that worries me is that I may be asked to sign my name in support of things which I believe are contrary to the Word of God. In effect I would be asked to say that right is wrong and wrong is right. Refusing to sign this will in all likelihood caused me to be removed from a part of my job that I hold very dear. This would cause a chain effect and I will have to quit without any prospect in sight of being able to contribute to the economical well-being of my family.

The choice is once again between comfort and security.

But one thing that I know about God is that those who are steadfast and committed to doing that which is right in His eyes can count on God's help and guidance. this is not the case for those who choose to oppose Him or being deceived they wrongly assume that He will not react in accordance with what He has said.

I guess that as I reflect upon this I understand that greater is He that is in me than that which is in the world. He is my light, my sword, my strong fortress and shield and therefore I need not be afraid or tremble at the threats of others. The Lord will be my avenger.

I have come to to the realization that as He has called me, He must lead me. I cast my lot in His hands and there I will stay until Judgment Day.

I am proud to be a child of God. His word is true and teaches us about the life the please Him. I will not fear a document nor the bad theology of those with more power than myself. I will trust in the Lord and follow Him. I will live for Him and if I am wrong then He shall discipline and correct me so that I may live.

God is great

peace on your heads